Merry Crhistmas to all!!!!!

Oh, I've been so lazy, but with good reason. I took some time off to rest. My holiday time at work has started, and I feel relaxed. I wanted to write something that is not on paper. LOL I hope to write more frequent.

I downloaded Netscape from a disk that gave me demos for dremweaver and fireworks. Hopefully I'll redo my hompage, cause it looks crappy. LOL

Today is the last day of class. All I have to do is turn in my project folder, and I'm done. Yes!!!!!!!!!!!

I've spent some time burning copies of my work to cd's so I can use them at home. I'm in the computer lab waiting for my instructor to arrive. Life, is good. Mom had a flat tire and didn't even realize. She drove home on a flat. I worked late last night (didn't get off until 2:00 AM). I didn't go to sleep until like 3:30 AM. I got up around 11:00 this morning, so I could put gas in my car, and take care of biz, before I stopped by my class. Now all I have to do is go to work. LOL. That's later today.

I hope to write more, now that I have some free time. LOL

I'm glad I'm back to writing regularly. I needed to clear the air first. Makes me feel good.

Yahooooooo! I completed BOTH my final projects!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now all I have to do is go to class on Monday and Tuesday and turn them in. I feel wonderful!!!!!!! It took me some doing, but I finished them in time, and I can rest my nerves. I do have to go to work, and deal with other student's nerves who have yet to start their finals, but I don't care, I've done something good for myself.

My cat has been trying to lay on the table. That's not good. He's been trying to find places to curl up on that's not the floor. He's been on my bed, my mom's, and my brother's bed. We got him a pillow. The moment he saw it, he was in heaven. It was his little space where he could rest. LOL. I couldn't take him on my table. I am pleased he has a space he can rest on without getting himself in trouble.

Classes are almost over, since I have two days left. I really am happy I stuck with the digital media program. I foolishly thought I was in over my head during the first semester, but now I realize that if I take it one step at a time, I don't have to worry.

I promised myself that I would re-design my own website over the break. I'm thinking of new images. I may use some from my project, because I loved what I did, and that is my goal. Also I have been working on new short stories. I want to compile the stories, as to get several to choose from, and to have a body of work. Go me!!!!!! (((((((((pats self on back)))))))))

I'm very happy now. :-)

I have to put in an appearence, because I love to write. As mentioned earlier, I had a lot to do with my finals. Man am I tired. LOL. Here's what I wrote for my entry:

Finals are nowhere finished. I'm about 95% done with my final web page project, and 65% done with my Photoshop final. Progress is good. I also had a creative burst, so I've been a writing fool. I hope to do more writing before the night's out, but the library's busy, so I may not. If I take a break, I may scribble down some ideas. I'd like to wait 'till I'm off work, so I won't be so distracted.

Bye.

I'm still busy. LOL. Holidays got me running in circles at work. Also finals still due. I worked real had on the web page class material. I want this done sooner, since I have to create ten pages. I love my work. I did image maps, slicing, exporting of Gifs and Jpgs to keep thins going well. Man have I suffered, but in the best way. It was all to get my material done. I'm proud to say I'm ahead of the game.

All that was needed for Tuesday's class, was me having my layout page completed. I did that and then some. I feel good. Today I said I wouldn't do anything for the page, to give my mind and body rest from the page. I was right to do so.

I have an hour left at work. It got busy in here. Too busy. In fact, I think I'm going to buy my dinner, and go home. I'll rest for the end of my day.

Working on web final project tonight. Am very busy, but wanted write at least something.
Heard about Michael Jackson? He's all over CNN, Court TV, and Fox News. I hope he's telling the truth, for his sake.

Professor not well today, so I'm in class typying something for this journal. Will go home and rest nerves. A thunderstorm is comming, so I want to be done with the computer when I leave the campus. I was tired this morning, and it seemed to trickle down to class time. I'm getting something to eat, then I'm going home, then onto work later. The good news is that its the "hump" day, so once it's over, I can breathe again.

My nose is running like a leaky facuett. When I excuse myself to blow it, it dries up. Go figure.

Did some more links to the page. I think they're well done, if I say so myself. LOL

I'm so busy with projects. Finals are stressful. I did want to write something though. I like writing. it releaves my stress some.

Tried the iced tea from Starbucks. It tastes NASTY!!!! LOL. Thank God I bought the tall, instead of the grande. This thing is awful. I've tasted bad tea before. I don't like this one. I know it's only my opinion, but it is what it is.

Didn't want to do anything but rest today, but I had to press on. I have things to do. Got myself though my image project. I have a big test on Thursday, and after than I still have two fianals to finish.

I'd love to add better links to this page, seeing as how I have started editing the code. It's a pity, cause I end up being pulled in so many directions. I don't want "Comfort Zone" to be a casualty.

Oh, I promised myself that after I finish my classes for the semester, I'm make a better homepage. LOL I want it to look good.

It's been a while since I wrote something meaningful, that I personally found satisfying. I've been contemplating ideas, plus having little adventures like you wouldn't believe. LOL. I stay busy.

My mother asked me to help her with her new insurance forms. She wanted to apply online, and I was ready to help. She kept changing her mind as to the selections. That made it frustrating to help her with things. We got it done though, thank goodness.

Been having late night creative urges, that may be in part due to my large consumption of water during the week-days. I flushed all that Cola off my brain. LOL

Class work's gotten tougher, but I'm working through that. Did work for my web-page final, and found myself wishing I didn't start earlier. One of the challenges of my classwork is that I have to find a decent solution, which I have. It was one of those day at the computer lab when the supervisor was like he may have to close early, and I felt 100% rushed. I HATE being rushed. I'm not that good when doing creative things rushed.

Thought I owed the IRS money, when in fact, I didn't. I had to return a notice to them, which I will do promptly.

I'm hungry. I may go to the grocery store, so I can get some good eats. I'm in the mood for some Mexican-style food.

Hello, been busy, and I wanteded to write something. I'm bored with television on my day off. I am going to be up to my neck in projects.

I was a creative whirlwind last night. I was up until 2:00 Am writng down Ideas. I may start writing again. I have so many ideas.

I'm being distracted by family members. I won't get anything done. :-(

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Working on my creativity. I seem to be lacking the proper focus. I'm all energy, and I'm feeling a need to direct my energies into something positive. I suppose I can call this a mature move on my part, because I really am desiring to have a purpose in writing I want to see a positive output of talent.

Creativity is a gift, and I want to pool my resources, because I know I can be a success with my gift. That is someting I have always neglected. My success depends on how I conduct myself, and if I shy away from my ideas, then I have nothing. I'm still in the process of developing ideas proper. I don't want to play it "safe" and try to second guess myself. I want to take some risks, and work at my crafts.

I had too much caffene. As a result, I was up late, and couldn't go to sleep. I think I may have dozed off around 6:00 AM. That sucked, and I'm still not sleepy.

Went to See Matrix Revolutions today. It was ok. I didn't like the ending, whic I won't spoil for anyone. How cool would that be?

Yesterday I worked on improving pages for my image project. We'll see how that
goes. I'd like to see it completed. I could then move onto my final project.

Been way too lazy. Good to write something fresh tonight.

My life's a soap opera. I have one friend who is having a crisis with her aunt. She want to rollover and let things happen to her. I hate talking to people like that. What makes it worse, is that she complained that she has no rights. WTF??? You gave them away. Enough about her. I've purged her from my mind for today.

Did lotsa homework for Photoshp class. For two assignments, I missed some important details. My instructor alerted me to it, and I got to spend an hour after class trying to fix my projects. I only have 2 projects left before the final. The instructor said there was a writing component to the final. I wonder how much writing is there.

I have open lab for my web design class tomorrow. I'll talk more on that tomorrow.

Work was ok. A little busy at times, and a little noisy. This is the only library that I've been at that encourages the students to talk loudly. LOL. Go figure.

Added link for my forum. I will be doing more of that soon. I want to get my ducks lined up in a row.

Working on Bloggsite. I just think I'll start slow. LOL My ambition led me to believe that I could dmake the site a little more spunkier. I just need to pace myself. LOL. This is hard work to maintian, but well worth it. I'm glad I spent this time working on this.

Oh yeah, Happy Halloween!!!!!!!!!

I have been working on my image project for my web design class. I have a lot of little mistakes that I hope to fix this week-end. I am very pleased with the progress I'm making.

Yesterday I felt really giving and good. I don't know what came over me, but a sense of peace came over me, as I helped many people, and tried my best to be a good person. I guess that's a wonderful quality I wanted to write about. For one day I had a truly pleasurable experience, and it felt AWESOME.

Let me tell you how good this experience was. When my "friend" called me at 4:30 PM at my job (walked in at 4:00), and preceded to tell me about her day, like I'm supposed to sit there and take it, I calmly reminded her that her call was inappropriate for the time, and said goodbye. Truth is, that was the LAST straw. If it were any other day I would have bitten her head off for calling me after I told her for some time now to limit calls to important situations, not casual calls. Like I have time for personal calls with my boss right next to me.

I don't like being mean, but it seems like that's my only option. I'm going to do it calmly, because I feel like it.

Been very lazy. Here is yesterday's entry:

Co-worker still sick. She has the flu B-A-D. No offense to her, but I hope she stays home. I don't want what she's got. LOL. Don't need it either. I do hope she gets better, and has a swift recovery-just at her home.

I was late for class this moning. I was doing fine until I turned on my TV while getting dressed. I hadn't peeped Rikki Lake in ages, but I did today. A guest called her "Jenny." Was that a faux pas or what? I laughed and laughed and laughed. I didn't get dressed. I left home, got into some so-so traffic, and barely made it to class with about 20 seconds or so to spare. I was psoitive I wasn't going to get a computer to use comming in so late. That'll learn me.

Finished my project. I'm proud of that. Library's busy again. I'm taking a break for some food.

Had a good day so far. Went to class, and talked to instructor about what I can expect from the Commercial graphics program. Frankly, I didn't know the difference between the graphic design program, and the digital media program. She told me that the difference is that in SC the graphic design program is more helpful for doing print jobs. I could do brochures, and posters. All that type of fun stuff.

With the digital media I could go into multimedia and design more internet content. She also told me the pay is better for multimedia, and the jobs are better outside of SC. I can expect better pay, a deeper challenge, and a lot more money. :-) Now that I do have a stronger focus on the digital media program, I can focus a lot stronger on it, and make my primary goal to graduate on time, and get me a good job!!!!!

I was coasting through the program, trying to feel my way through, but now that's over. I'm sticking with the program, and I'm gonna do better for myself!!! I can see myself finishing and challenging myself to come up with new ideas. The world is open to me. I can go into game development, or educational programming. I'm heading down the right track!!!! The Lord does deliver clarity to those who ask for it. :-)

Co-worked absent today. She's under the weather. She sounded fine last night, but that's all it takes is overnight stuff. Flu's going around. I hate that. I manage to get sick every semester. Can't let that happen this time around. I hope she feels better.

A friend decided that she wanted to purchase Dreamweaver/Fireworks even though she has no idea how the programs work. I think she may be feeling left out 'cause she's not taking classes. I have a sneaky feeling that she'll be asking me a lot of questions on how to operate it. I also think she tried to rub it in my face that she was buying the software. It's the way it came out of the blue, and was mentioned. I'm feeling waaaaaayyy to good to let her disposition to affect me. I'm not answering her questions though. LOL. She's not popping up to ask/show me her Dreamweaver/Fireworks problems either. LOL.

This is what I should have posted yesterday:

I'm finishing up my homework, which is due on Tuesday. I'm making web pages, which turns out to be harder than one expects, as a novice. I have pratical knowldge, but I'm getting better. Had to e-mail professor as to a question about codes. I'll make arrangements to finish the work if I get a response by tomorrow, or Monday.

Have to go to grocery store. I have to cook tonight. I really don't want to, but what chjoice do I have I want to eat, after all. LOL. I also gotta put gas in the car. It's on a quarter tank, but I'd like for it to be a little higher. You know what I mean?

Came to work, and have so little to do. Most people want reference help today. Of course the librarian doesn't come in until 1:00 PM today. When he/she gets in, they'll have their work cut out for them. When I worked on Friday, I didn't realize that reference bailed out on us before we closed the place. People were asking me all sorts of questions I couldn't answer. I did my best, but it was clear that they needed the librarian.

Almost forgot about daylight savings time. Would have came to work an hour earlier if left to my own devices. Yet I still managed to go to bed late. LOL

Finished most of my homework. I still have another day to fix my web pages for a grade. I'm getting nervous. I had hoped to be done by Saturday. After class, went to grocery store. Bought ingredients for beef stew. Somebody has to cook the rice today, 'cause I did the stew last night. I got home after 6:00 pm to cook. Didn't finish until 11:30 PM. I took my time. I wanted the meat tender before I added the vegetables. I may have put in too much veggies, but it will make it more filling IMHO. I get this feeling my brother won't make the rice. I'll do it when I get home (around 5:30 today).

Bought my niece the Lion King DVD last week-end. She's such a cutie. I'd love to get her more gifts. Maybe something she can learn from. I'll have to put thought into that one. I'd like to make sure she gets family support in addition to her parental support. :-) It makes me feel good knowing she's getting proper love and attention. I've never been an uncle before, so I'm leaning and growing. That is just the most precious moment I think I've had in a long time. I'm savoring that one.

My novel. LOL Hadn't touched on it in a while. I was writing an essay on the direction I wanted to take when I was so interrupted by a phone call (several phone calls). I'm like "hey this is my time," and people are like "but I need." sigh, nobody listens, but they want me to pay attention. LOL. When I get home I'm making all the time I need for my essay. it's long overdue.

I'm at work today, and boy is the library slow. No student wants to be caught in this place on a Friday. It's like they're embarrased to study and what not. LOL. The people I've seen have some interesting clothing on. Some of the people are casual, and some are wearing stuff like, "did you see yourself before you left your house?" LOL Nothing like a college campus to wake your senses.

Had a boring (cheap) lunch of chicken nuggets and waffle fries. Wish it was better, but beggars can't be chooser, you know?

Paid for parking today, and it cost me $4.50 for 3 hours. Man, It's crazy downtown. Had to move my car closer to the library, so that helps some, but not much by the way of time (I still had to wait for time to allow me to park freely)

We're talking about the new libray being built. Nobody knows what's going to happen to the old one, so when people ask me, I can't tell them anything.

Worked on project for web design class today. I asked the professor if the second web design class uses the same book. She said that she didn't know because the Marcomedia software is upgrading, which means that there will be new books on that. I don't know how good that is, but it means I will have to buy new books. I was going to buy the macromedi software, but that won't happen until January 2004.

I will be working on a Friday (How I hate that), so I'll do what I have to do. This is a wrinkle in my plans. LOL. I wanted to rest more.

Should have posted sooner. I'm such a slowpoke. LOL I have much to do.

It's been a long time. Not!!! LOL. I've been doing evertything from cleaning my room, to doing my homework. Man am I tired. LOL

Went to class, and one classmate is like asking all the time for answers. I don't have them, how could she ask for them? I did notce she played dumb, and letothers finish her work. Imagine, her grade came form two other people. It would have been three, if I didn't keep my mouth shut.

Not too busy today. It's nearing fall break for the college students. I have the dubious task of being here tonight. Most of the students have cleared out. I have been getting some dumb and drawn out phone calls. it seems nobody can form a sentance today. LOL

Today in class I had to finish my web pages for the imahe project. I did a lot of hustling. LOL. Editing is not as easy as it seems. I needed to align my tables proper, and take care of all of the bugs. I did it. I got a 92, and 96 on the pages I turned in.

One of my classmates doesn't understand anything in the class. She keeps asking questions, and sometimes I can't answer them. I think she wants others to do the work for her, since she didn't even define her site (something we learned in August). She says she's scatterebrained, but she needs to get it together. Maybe she could BS her way through a web design, but I think she's cheating herslef, and the client, if she ever takes up web design as a career.

Some people helped her in class. Poor people did all of her work for her. She said it was a nightmare to complete, but it had to be a dream, since she didn't do too much. LOL I know one thing, I will not do her work for her. She's gonna have to learn the work.

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I'm working on changes for The Comfort Zone. Bear with me please. It's a work in progress.

Today I got a letter in the mail telling me I didn't get the job. Boy that smarts so bad. I really wanted to break into a new position. I suppose I will have to bide my time. I know there is something better out there for me, so I won't give up. I do however feel like I'm chasing my tail. If a job won't come to me, I'll guess I'll have to make one of my own. Something's gotta come my way.

On a good note, I don't feel like I'm in a funk. I'm not angry or upset. It must have something to do with the fact that I prayed a lot about this interview, and promised myself that I would make the best impression I could. That way if I didn't get the job, it wouldn't be due to any deficiencies I had at the time. I did make an impression, just one they wanted.

I'm going to pray that I become a better writer, and that I start selling some of my short stories, so I can have something on the side that keeps me going. Because at the end of the day, I need to feel like heading somewhere other than nowhere.

I'm in a funk again. It's because I need some rest. LOL. I'm tired. Completed most of my project for my web design class. There's a student in my class that always asks me questions. She's a little too much, and she doesn't seem to grasp a thing we've learned. I can't help her much, even though she thinks I'm like efficent in the class. I'm like I'm reading the same book as you, and all I ever do to remember my steps is go over the pratice exercise. LOL. I guess she doesn't want to go that route.

I like the progress I'm making, and I need to feel that way about my photoshop class. I kinda hated that last project. I got fustrated, and upset. I turned in what I had, but I don't know if that is good enough. That makes me feel sad. maybe I wasn't going to learn ALL of the material, but the majority of it. Classses are tough sometimes.

I do want to rest my nerves, and go to sleep. I forgot Law and Order now comes on Tuesdays, so I'm missing that. Life's full of twists.

Can't remember anything I did this week-end. It's all a blur. LOL. Seriously, I rested. That was good enough for me. Gave one of my stories to an editor to read. Began to think about ways to make my writing less sterile, and more poetic. We shall see how that works out tonight.

Co-worker asked if I'd take her Sunday shift (4pm to Midnight) I replied that I hate those hours. I LOVE my free evenings, I don't want to do them. Usually I don't say no, but I had to. LOL I hate those hours on Sundays. If it were an emergency I might consider doing it, but its not.

Other co-worker has lost her mind. She's cursed our supervisor and students. On top of that she stormed out in the middle of the conversation. She should have gotten a pink slip. I know I couldn't do that (and don't want to). Some of the students saw that mess, and lost a lot of respect for the staff. I think something's in the air during the day that makes people fool in here. There's no excuse for insulting people (especially good students who do their job). It will go on and on, until somebody's mouth falls off.

Worked on image project for web design class. I tired to get my table set proper. Boy was it all wrong. It was so misalligned, I had to delete ti, and start all over again. I got it better the second go 'round. I did forget to add all the alt text for the images. I remembered after I got back home form the computer lab. LOL. So if I have some spare time that's what I'll do tomorrow, since I can't edit from here. Booooooo

Did the regulars today. I went to work, and I went to class. In class theI had to tun in my outline/flowchart for my fianl project. I almost forgot about it. LOL I would have been in trouble.

Thought about something. I need to not look at my novel for a week or to, to divorce my mind from it, so I can look at it with new eyes when i return. Just a thought.

This is what I wrote in my jounal:

Had my interview today. Man was I nervous. LOL I took the nervousness as a good sign, since I knew I was taking everything seriously. I demonstrated some serious communication skills, and my background served me well. I hope to hear from them soon.

I did think I'd miss working with some of my co-workers, but the better pay offsets any sad feelings. Also, I need a new challenge to lift me up. I'm way too young to be caught up in a dead-end job.

My life outside of work is a soap opera. A freind suggested that my annoying friend was attracted to me, since she's on the clingly side. I'm like nothing's going to happen, but the this woman's clinging more and more. She's forgetting her boundaries, and I can't tolerate that. The drama unfolds in "Stacy's Life." LOL. She's gonna get her feelings hurt if she does that dissrespect thing again.

I got 52 pages of my novel!!!! Now all I have to do is revise that sucker. LOL. The easy part is over.

Also revised a short story. Yayyyyy!!!!!!!! It's all good. I love well spent time!!!!

I am getting back into my drawings and paintings. It seems aburden has lifted, and creativity is pouring back into me. I have been in a creative slump, and now that's over with. I'm riting ideas down, and will have to remember to bring my sketchbook with me, so I can put images down from my head.

Went to class, then Wal-Mart. Love to shop, but I was tired and hungry. I felt a little light-headed. Not a good way to do any purchasing. Got some waffle fries and a soda to offset the hunger. At work bought some wings (Italian, and Oriental) and celery sticks to fend off hunger. Drank some tea, but am now chasing down water, which i also need to keep up with.

Will visit family member tomorrow, whom I haven't seen in a while. I'm looking forward to the meeting. Remember how some relatives you absolutely dread visiting. LOL. Mercifully, that's not the case!!!!

Happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!! LOL

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I've been lazy, and I don't feel a bit guilty for it. With classes and my job, I just wanted to rest my nerves. I did get the rest, had pizza, and watched some not so great movies, but the point was I enjoyed my free time. LOL. I did have the pesky task of mowing my lawn before any chilling could begin. The front lawn is always the hardest. The worst part is between the bushes and the ditch. Not enough room to manuver.

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I'm glad this day is almost over. It feels so blah.

Feeling like I'm in a funk. Its put a cloud on things. Need to rest. Will be able to soon. Novel writing moving at snail's pace. At least its still moving.

Just had some nachos for lunch. Couldn't eat all. LOL. I'll eat them later.

Rome was not built in a day. Why do I feel a need to rush myself. i should Pace myself, as to not burn out. I'm positive when the spirit moves me, I'll be writing again!

Creativity is doing that off/on thing. LOL. All I wanted to do is organize some of my thoughts.

Working on novel again. I got an idea for the title. Came up with the idea while walking to my car from class. Jotted it down on a peice of paper.

I'll post the title one day. LOL. Not to be mysterious, but its not copywrited, so I don't want to give it away without protection. As soon as I get it together, I'll be proud to show it.

Took Photshop class today. Got a little confused, but I think I'll todays lesson is under control.

I met a friend yesterday I hadn't seen in a while. She's doing fine. I was happy to see her. Its nice to see someone who you have good memories of, 'cause she's an angel.

Hmmmm. I'm at work, and I'm still not fully awake. Proud of the work I did yesterday for my novel. I worked on charcters, so now I have a list of them, with their motives, and their relations to other characters. Mind you. I also have the first ten pages typewritten, and at least five more handwritten. I hope to produce some work later, when I go home. Have to remember to make a back-up copy of my work on disk, so I have spare to work on. Also need a print version of it, so I can edit directly on the text.

Ideas are looking good!!!!!! Will work more on them.

So far, so good witht the ideas for my novel. Still working on it.

Got some good ideas for my novel. Jotted them down quickly, will be tying up results ASAP!!!!! :-)

Guy cut his foot outside the library. He like "its no big deal," but there's blood all on the pattio. Yuck, yuck, yuck.

Hmmm. I'm filling in for my co-worker, so I'm here on a Satuday. I should have been mowing my lawn, and trying to relax, then working on my novel. Took baby steps with the writing. I can do some research now that I'm at work. Thank goodness for that.

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I just wanted to start my journal, so here goes. I've been busy. Real busy, so I have to slow down. Forunately, I have the day off tomorrow. I may finish up some things like my novel that I swear I'll have a chapter down by the end of the month. Did all the homework I need to do, so I'll have a quiet Friday. :-)

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